It’s been awhile since I have blogged. Don’t get me wrong, I’ve been doing plenty of writing. I’ve been writing in Academia for the last four months. I’m enrolled in an accelerated program pursuing my Bachelor’s Degree in Anthropology-a lifelong goal I am finally going to meet. It’s a rigid program. Each term is only 8 weeks long and there is just as much-if not more-work than any regular undergraduate program. But I am driven. I have drive. No seriously, I just started using Google Drive. It’s quite handy.
“It’s Been A While…” I like that song. I used to sing it when I thought I was king of the Karaoke bars. Those were the days. I don’t do bars any more. In fact, I don’t drink anymore. Drinking nearly ended my life and it destroyed some of my dearest relationships. I’m 38 and when I was 37 I had a heart attack. I was overweight but not morbidly obese or anything. I found out that I had a birth defect in my heart. It was a minor heart attack nonetheless. It actually felt more like a panic attack than anything else. I lost 65 lbs in less than 9 months without any diet or exercise. How did I do it? Mostly from not eating Skittles and candy, a medication that has a side effect of losing weight, and LOTS of stress. I can’t stress enough how much stress I have had.
So I’m on break now for the holiday break and I decided to do some writing outside of school. I need to write. I was born to write. If I was never allowed to have a pen and paper (or keyboard and computer; it’s implied, you get my point) it would be a death sentence. One time I had a dream that I was living in some utopian world where I had committed some crime against the state. My sentence: they cut off my finger tips. That was years ago but I still shriek at the thought of it. I just don’t know what I would do with all the thoughts, feelings, emotions and ideas in my head. I would go nuts. I’m probably already nuts, but that is besides the point. For the record, I prefer gel ink pens. They’re messy, they leak through the page to the other side, and they get all over your hand while your writing. But they are very permanent-unless you get them wet or smudge them before the ink dries.
I’ve been thinking about HubPages a lot lately. I have been on HP for over 7 years and haven’t published anything in at least over a year. I don’t know, maybe even longer. A lot has changed there because Google has no idea what it wants. It changes its algorithms as often as the tickers change on those stock exchange boards. Content doesn’t really change, it just “diversifies”. I don’t like that word and I don’t even know if it makes sense, but that is what I said, so deal with it.
So I got an email a few months ago from HubPages saying that if I tweak one of My Hubs it can be moved to one of the new sites, i.e. “Vertical Domains/Network Sites” (Owlcation) and have a better chance at traffic, and traffic usually translates to more earnings. I could use more earnings, couldn’t you? So the Hub (it’s like a blog or online article for those who aren’t familiar with HubPages) is about Cambodia, specifically, How to Read and Write the Cambodian Khmer Language. I worked very hard on that Hub a few years ago, and if you go to Google and search for “How To Read and Write Khmer Cambodian” my article is ranked on the first page. (Sometimes second page; depends on the day and which search engine you use, but I am strictly talking Google here.) That’s amazing! Getting a first page ranking on Google is almost impossible-being in the top five out of over 1,030,00 results (my article moves up and down but is almost always on the first page) is even more incredible. At least I think so. (There are also other links that link to my article such as Pinterest.)
But there are 2 problems. The biggest problem is the word Khmer. See Khmer is the actual word Cambodian’s use to describe themselves, their country (Srok Khmer), and their language (Khmer); but most non-Cambodians don’t know that-so when people search for how to speak Cambodian, they often don’t add the word Khmer. Bummer. No way around that. So when I search with the same terms and omit the word Khmer, I am ranked sometimes on the second page, sometimes on the first, and sometimes I can’t find it. God, I love Google!
Now onto my second problem. If I make the suggested edits and submit the Hub to the new HubPages domain, will I loose my ranking? To be honest, I am not earning that much on the page even though it is ranked so high. How many people do you know are looking or rather searching the web for how to speak , read, or write Cambodian? In case you’re wondering, Here’s the link to the Hub: Learn How To Speak and Write Cambodian: An Introduction To The Khmer Language: Numbers and Letters I just don’t know what to do? It’s not about money, but if I make the change I have potential to make more earnings, but…theoretically, I could lose the page ranking that I have held for so many years. I have no idea what to do…
So that’s my dilemma. I’m stuck. Maybe I should just say go for it. Make the edits and see what happens. What do I have to lose? I could always screenshot the ranking for bragging rights, right? Aside of school, I have so much going on in my personal life right now. It’s strange. There are so many good things happening…school is going great (first term straight A’s!), I’m “off the sauce” if you know what I mean, and I am the Secretary of the Cambodian American Rescue Organization and we are on the threshold of becoming something huge that will help many, many people. I’m proud of that. I’m even an assistant Adult ESL teacher, how about that.
On the other hand, there are some really personal things going on in my life right now that I will not discuss here. I really wish I could talk about it, tell you the whole story, but to be honest, it’s none of your business (sorry) and even more so, I wouldn’t want to “air my dirty laundry” like I see so many people do on BookFace. I have ethics you know. There are just some things you just don’t say in public. No, you talk to your therapist and other family members (and maybe friends, if you have any) and you keep that stuff off the internet.
So what’s next? I have no idea. I have 10 days until my next term starts but I can already access my classes if I choose to start early. To be honest, I was quite ill last term. I had strep throat, the flu, and a sinus infection-not to mention all the crap that was going on in my personal life (I told you I wasn’t going to tell you, mind your beeswax), that I almost didn’t get all the work done. I missed a couple assignments, didn’t get strait A’s (still pulled off a B though in one class (somehow)-it was a writing class) but I made it. I completed the term, passed with “decent” grades, and promised myself that no matter what happens in life, I will put school (and other important things) first. It’s all temporary. This too shall pass. Right?
So I guess that’s enough for tonight. I hope you made it to the end. If you didn’t, I don’t blame you. Only another writer would probably understand. See you soon.